'Rawr' I Am!

What does a man without faith retreat to when he realised that he have sinned? Somehow the first thing I remembered in the morning when I woke up was that I recalled how I made fun of a ill person unknowningly. Umbrella was the nickname we gave to this particular person, which was used between me and Alex. But because of me being an ass in nature, I kept informing Alex about that person being there with the nickname. After only knowing yesterday that the person became like that because of an illness, I felt somewhat uncomfortable and guilty even though that person didn't knew about the nickname thingy. Who can I turn to in times like this given that I am a free-thinker? What I can only do is to blog it out and learn from my own lessons before hurting anyone else. I'm truly sorry to that particular person (although he/she don't know about it), and I assure you that all my nonsense have been stopped. As such, thou should never judge a book by its cover; and nicknames does hurts when the person knows about it and you have no idea idea of what's going on in the first place. But I'm perfectly alright if you call me Ruby, Rubin, Rubbish Bin, Ribbon, Rubs or any other nicknames you can think of.. I will still response to it! In fact, it cheers me up when you call me that since they're pretty funny. :D

Being a person caught in between two faiths, I have chosen to be a free-thinker ever since I graduated from secondary school. Because the upper chain of my family were buddist, I was a buddist from young. I have been doing things that my parents asked me to do that I have no idea of. When I see their so-so-many gods, I am always so puzzled and just pray from A-Z for my family the list that I have always done, which is health, financial and studies. But till I entered ACS a christian school, I slowly began to have mix feelings about religions. Every week from primary one to secondary four, I had to attend a fixed chapel sessions in our schedule. I learnt more about the importance of each every other character traits from their Bible. At times, I even go along with the prayers and do my own prayers at night when I'm facing my own set of problems. But soon, I asked myself one day if I could believe in both two faiths. But I decided to give them up after asking myself a set of questions after another, especially given the concept of evolution and other scientific evidences. Yes, indeed faith is something you can turn to in times when you are scared, when you are clueless of what you are doing, when you are looking for a sign and many others.. For my grandfather, he simply believed that a faith is something that will protect you. That's why when my uncle's side converted, he was perfectly fine with it. But I believe that I will find what is my very own faith in the upcoming years *tsk NS?*...